Love shouldn't be a four letter lie.

It's funny, how I can look at my mom and friends who revolve their lives around a guy, and feel so frustrated with them when they keep going back to the guy, even though it's evident that the guy doesn't have the same emotional attachments. And yet, I was in that position not too long ago. It's amazing how we finally see the truth when we simply change perspective.
Now, though, I put Jesus in the center of my life. Don't get me wrong, I still feel lonely quite often. I was made to love and be loved. The right time just hasn't come yet, and I don't think it will for a few more years. I'm just trying to change my heart to stop desiring a relationship with a guy, and start desiring an intimate relationship with Christ.

A good friend gave me a piece of wisdom that always comes to mind when this topic bothers me. She said that we shouldn't look for a person who completes us, because then you have two incomplete people trying to fill the other person's voids. We should be looking to God to fill those holes, and not another person. Instead, we should be a 'whole' person, who finds another 'whole' person, who will help us to grow. For me, especially, that won't happen until I live a life that is fully committed to Christ. And I have a feeling that the man God has picked for me won't come stumbling into my life until I stop looking for him.

I wish my mom could see things this way. It honestly crushes me to see that she thinks she can't do any better than her current stand-in. Where is the love for herself? This guy doesn't treat her like the daughter of God she is. Have women become so desperate for affection that they're willing to put up with all kinds of crap, as long as it means they aren't alone? I'd have to say that, unfortunately, that's the way it seems. And I am terrified that my younger sisters will end up like the rest of the women in my family. I know I am not doing enough to ensure that they have a better chance of avoiding this trend.

I want to help young girls of this generation and the next, to see that they don't need any man except for Jesus. I want to help them love themselves, and be confident in who God created them to be. Females are so vulnerable and emotional, and when we get caught up in the world's idea of love, we easily forget about agape, the most wonderful love our Father could bless us with. A love that doesn't have to be earned. I really feel a calling to this issue, like God wants to use my experiences and my passion to make a difference and bring Him glory. And that concomitantly excites and intimidates me.

My prayers are going out to all the girls, weak and strong, heartbroken and infatuated. That they won't feel it necessary to look for love in a temporary guy, because a much better love already exists in the arms of our Father. And He will never forsake us.