Lord, give me courage. Right now, I feel like running away. Abandoning all these responsibilities that shouldn't belong to me. Leaving these people behind, no matter the consequences. I just want to escape and not have to deal with these petty issues anymore.
Lord, give me strength. I feel like screaming until my throat is raw and my vocal chords give out. I feel like breaking down until I'm emotionally spent.
Lord, give me faith in You. I know this is for a reason; I know that You need me to love them no matter how frustrated they make me. I need to be a light, I need to be different. I need to trust that You're taking care of me, no matter how difficult these events may seem.
Help me to see this from Your perspective. I know You're up to something, and it'll turn out wonderful (it always does). But for now, it's hard for me to see beyond my emotions. It's hard to see how my mother's boyfriend, who makes my stomach churn, and who causes so much drama and tension, could be the basis of something that comes from You.
But Lord, I don't have to see how these pieces fit together. I'm sure that if I could, I wouldn't understand it anyways.
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